Why Do I Swipe Past God?

He’s still right there… waiting, not judging, just loving.

I’ve been meaning to write this, not as a sermon or a confession, but as someone trying to understand myself, too.

Lately, I’ve noticed something strange.

When I’m scrolling through Instagram or TikTok, I could spend minutes on comedy skits, football highlights, lifestyle content, even things that aren’t particularly meaningful. But the moment I see anything about God, Christianity, or a preacher talking about Jesus, my thumb moves faster than my mind. Swipe.

And it’s not because I don’t love God. I do. It’s not because I don’t believe in Him. I still trust Him. I still say “Thank You” for the little things. But I don’t stop to listen anymore. I don’t stop to watch. And when I try to, when I say, “let me not be that person who skips God”, even then, it feels like I’m only watching so I don’t feel guilty. So I don’t look like the “bad Christian” I fear I’m becoming.

I don’t know what’s happening to me.

I haven’t backslidden in the traditional sense. I haven’t given up on God. But maybe I’ve become numb. Perhaps I’ve grown so used to distractions that God now feels like an interruption instead of home. And I hate that. I hate even writing that.

But this is me. Honest. Wondering why my heart doesn’t leap the way it used to. Wondering why the voice of God on my screen suddenly feels too loud for my soul.

I don’t know the complete answer yet. But maybe writing this is a way back. Perhaps it’s my spirit saying, “I miss you,” even when my actions look like I don’t.

If you’ve ever felt this too, this quiet distance from God, this slow silence where faith used to be loud, then maybe you’re not alone.

Maybe we’re just trying to find our way back.

And maybe He’s still right there… waiting, not judging, just loving.